NOW&THEN

this past year i fell out of love,fell back into to,had my fair share of headaches,heartaches & loneliness,felt out of place. I look at my self now and I try to believe that I'm satisfied with who I am and what I've got.


Who I was,my age, my looks,my changes, my memories,my mistakes,my life: fading. I’m already remembering this. This phase, this stage, this state of self-adjustment. Bringing me closer to the actual feeling of when I can look back, realistically. Without pretending to have already done this.

I endure it all now...

This year has gone by too quickly for me to understand...how did i do that,why did that happen,how did i go through all of that and still survive,how did you & i get to this point..

 But I’ve gone through this before. “Change”. I recognize this urgency, to past time so that I can finally reach… something.


I’m not even sure what I’m waiting for. Regardless, I’m looking forward to it.

"You are your hair and your eyes and your thoughts. You are what you look at and what you feel and what you do about it. The light from the sun is still a part of the sun. My thoughts of you are as real as any part of you."

if there was ever one picture that summed up exactly how i feel, and could put absolutely everything in perspective in my life… it would be this picture. but no matter how much you want to, and how hard you try, some of those people will NEVER deserve anything good in their life. they’ll constantly continue to take advantage of it. they need to lose everything. they need to lose it all. because maybe then they’ll realize everything they’ve taken for granted.

and even then, that’s giving them way too much credit. some people won’t change.