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what in the devil happened to us ?!























oh yessss,right...






different schools,different friends,different directions,different LIFE...

frowns.

we're back and forth,hot and cold.
it's safe to say you keep me on my feet.
keep my heart safe,i've left in your hands.

don'tmakemymistake.

your heart is an empty room

We're not the same, dear, as we used to be.
The seasons have changed and so have we.
There was little we could say, and even less we could do.

you.

don't hide love.
express it.
not to demand that they love you back,but to express what you feel inwardly outwardly.

ups&downsss.

10:18 pm,drinking tea,listening to ambient music,reminiscing on a beautiful day spent with a beautiful friend,thinking of ex-lovers,wishing for once that i had one to hold in my arms,i'm singing along,wishing i had written this song,i want to do something no ones ever done before. where is my mind?

cacapoopoopeepee

i am so impatient.
please,let's read each other's minds and figure out which road we're going to take.

because i'm ready for this adventure,i just wish you'd let me know if you are too...

f.i.i.l.

friday i'm in love
friday i'm in love.
friday,i'm in love.

i want to see The Cure @ C-fest soooo bad.
anyone wanna come?

:pp

virtues.

patience is something i struggle with.

3.26.09

right,left,right,left.
i am slowly walking myself out of this slump and back to my normal estefania self.

etc.

life and death,energy and peace.
if i stop today,it'll still be worth it.
even all the terrible mistakes i've made,and unmade if i could.
the pains that have burned me and scarred my soul,it was worth it.
for having been allowed to walk
where i have walked,
which was to hell on earth,
heaven on earth,
back again,into
under.
far in between
through it,& above.

dot dot dot...

it's been a month or two since i've seen your face. the smile that always made me feel right at home. the smile that told me everything was going to be alright. i try to tell myself that i don't miss you,and i'm getting pretty good at it.

amilying?

e v e r y d a y

you think i'm the one who shuts everyone out but maybe you didn't try very hard to stay in . no phone calls or conversations came my way. you said we should stop this and try to be better,but i don't see any difference,and i guess that's my fault too. and i'm the reason i'm unhappy right?

>.<

That is the way it is with a wound. The wound begins to close in on itself,to protect what is hurting so much. And once it is closed,you no longer see what is underneath,what started the pain...

the joy luck club

"What was worse,we asked among ourselves,to sit and wait for our own deaths with proper somber faces? Or to choose our own happiness?"