take your love of money,your love of this run down society,take the people who don't even know who you are,take your love of plastic perfection,take your love of people's opinions.
take it,and stick back in that thing you call a heart.
i don't even know who you are anymore.
so take the money and watch it burn
watch it as it all goes up in flames
Until you realize what you got to learn
you'll make the same mistake over and over again

PLEASE

i showed you a world i've spent my life keeping a lock on,and for what?


please,write away your negatives,your lies,your games.
return to me clean slated.
return to the time where we were as easy and natural as breathing.

i have a problem. I feel like we're on a rollercoaster,one i'm forever trapped in. sometimes i feel like i'm just in your way. i have the most irrational fears. i need something new,i need the fresh air,i need to be able to breathe again. what we have is not a blissful thing. everything is getting old, and nothing that is new is in my reach anymore. i have more insecurities than the stars,my insecurities could eat me alive,& believe me,they are doing a good job...

i've never seen someone try so hard to shut someone out. just stop. i can't breathe in your pool of lies. do you have any idea? how deep can you dig your hole? doesn't matter,it's always gonna be there. you can try and try and try,but its STILL THERE. i wanna be the light in your darkness. you're throwing away every good thing thats come to your side. just let it be. you've said its made you the person you are today. so let it be. let it continue to make you a better person,and don't let the hole suffocate you and cloud your view.

!

just when i say i'm done,& i know what i want,& it isn't you,i change my mind.i don't see your face often,i don't feel your arms around me the way i used to.i miss you,more than i let myself acknowledge,more than i want to,more than i should.all i have to do is see your face,enclose my self in your arms,listen to your heartbeat,& feel you inhale,then exhale,& the world stops.i forget everything i've ever said,every bitter emotion i've ever felt.and it's just you and me again...

reflections.

mhmmm
thinkthinkthink.

i've got it all figured out.

i'm doing it for me.

baby,

we'll never be on the same page.

gahhh

i need
i need
i need

i want amnesia

enough said

...

fuck honesty.
fuck people.
fuck hope.
fuck faith.
fuck caring.
fuck opinions.
fuck chances.
fuck optimism.
fuck the L word.



"we're just letting it go to waste. here are two people who love each other,& we're letting it go to waste."-you♥

question.

am i doing it for me,or am i doing it for you?

the L word

tired tired tired.
stayed up until 2 am,
sitting under my tree with the person i think just may be my soul mate.
i have choices choices choices to make.
stay or go?
i wish it was that easy.
BEST night ever,because you showed me...
WORST night ever,because you told me...

i'm not the same person i used to be.
i love my present,but i also love my past.
i'm not ashamed of what i've had,& i'm not sad because i have it no longer.
i know who i am,and who i want to be.

I always believed that in life if you wanted something so bad, you would never give up on getting it but now, i kinda feel there are somethings you just got to let go - let nature do the work.