your words are non existent to everyone else but me.

r.i.p.

how is our first thanksgiving,birthday,christmas going to be without you?
what about graduation?
how is elizabeth,my baby sister,going to be growing up without you?



rest in paradise,papa♥

be honest,am i just a habit you're too tired to break?

f.y.i.

if i could,i would.

alluring?

helplesshopelessselflessreckless
brainlesscarelesscluelessdefenseless
heartless.

;)

popularity is trivial, therefore i see no reason to worry about it. people demand too much;too much love,too much faith,too much attention. i know i'm selfish,i know i'm apathetic. but i do have a heart,i am a soul. i've put my unending trust in those select few,& those people have unfortunately let me down.

the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone,and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name.

you

INVADE everything. i hate you. i love you.

back

into this cocoon i creep...

one day,
i'll let him inside my labyrinth of a mind. he'll see how he goes in and out of it,all the time. how the blood flows from my brain through my veins,flows through all my imperfections and into my heart. he has the key;someone else could imitate it,but never duplicate it. i hate this feeling.i think he's perfect. maybe some day he'll see,...and someday he might also might find another stupid insignificant member of the female species who can get her dirty,unworthy paws on him,& there's nothing i can do about it.
why? cause he's everything I need him to be,except mine.

the

mirror is my nemesis.

open

y o u r e y e s !

you just don't see it.

sweet dream or beautiful nightmare?

it was as close to perfection as i've ever gotten.
you were standing right in front of me & you said those three little words that i thought i'd never hear...
"i love you".
i laughed and looked away,not believing,thinking this is too good to be true.
you grabbed my shoulders,looked me in the eyes and said "no steff,i really love you. i have all along".
you started to lean ever so slowly towards me,and then...



i woke up.






dreams are not as fun when they have no chance of coming true.