i wanna stay

too many times, I have wondered what all the trying is for. I'm gonna drown cos I know that you've fallen short. but do you know? it doesn't change the way I feel about you, at the end of the day. cos I know, that I all I want is what you got. too many times, I have wanted to turn around and walk away knowing deep inside, you can't provide what I need from you, anyway. i wanna stay but I know I'm gonna lose myself this way.

you ask me if i think it's worth it,i've never been more sure.
but its never made sense for me to love you,or for you to love me,i've always known that.

you know what?

my hearts empty,i'm empty. anything else just gets me into trouble. c'est la vie.

Despite the fact that there are over 7 billion people on this earth,there are the times where you feel shipwrecked & alone. Times even the most resourceful survivor would need a message in a bottle, or on an answering machine.

your words are non existent to everyone else but me.

r.i.p.

how is our first thanksgiving,birthday,christmas going to be without you?
what about graduation?
how is elizabeth,my baby sister,going to be growing up without you?



rest in paradise,papa♥

be honest,am i just a habit you're too tired to break?

f.y.i.

if i could,i would.

alluring?

helplesshopelessselflessreckless
brainlesscarelesscluelessdefenseless
heartless.

;)

popularity is trivial, therefore i see no reason to worry about it. people demand too much;too much love,too much faith,too much attention. i know i'm selfish,i know i'm apathetic. but i do have a heart,i am a soul. i've put my unending trust in those select few,& those people have unfortunately let me down.

the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone,and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name.

you

INVADE everything. i hate you. i love you.

back

into this cocoon i creep...

one day,
i'll let him inside my labyrinth of a mind. he'll see how he goes in and out of it,all the time. how the blood flows from my brain through my veins,flows through all my imperfections and into my heart. he has the key;someone else could imitate it,but never duplicate it. i hate this feeling.i think he's perfect. maybe some day he'll see,...and someday he might also might find another stupid insignificant member of the female species who can get her dirty,unworthy paws on him,& there's nothing i can do about it.
why? cause he's everything I need him to be,except mine.

the

mirror is my nemesis.