people believe all things are true and false,yin and yang. why doesn't anything else matter? why do we blindly follow and not question the world in which we live?

the reason why

like ivy,you creep back,latching onto the chambers in my heart,leeching onto the safety of my soul,then slithering through my veins and out my pores.

i've started running. i don't give a damn anymore about keeping my expectations in check. i'm surrendering myself completely to hope. i'm elated. i know that what i believe is what i'll find.

and i know,i KNOW.
you have an indelible memory.you can never forget a thing! well,let me tell you,your recollection of every last detail has nothing to do with memory. it's called holding a goddamn grudge.

fate

from the latin root "fatal"


i'm cut loose,untethered,not belonging to anyone or anything.

love shmlove

who needs it?
this is why i've always kept my mouth shut.

me myself&i

You were happy once; you were sunshine and smiles and a brightness that radiated. You may be cloudy now, you may not want to sing. You may just want to fold inside of yourself, on the oldest couch you can find, by the biggest window, and watch it rain.
You used to find that little things made you happy; now you can’t even find the big things. Somehow, along the way, you lost yourself.
One foot in front of the other, and you will find your way back.

nothing but a miracle

"love is a trap. when it appears we see only its light,not its shadows."



please,i wish i could vent properly.

throughout this whole time, the second he was giving up,I was deeply blaming myself. As if, every stunt he pulled was my fault.I'm here questioning God,wondering if something was wrong with ME! I don't understand, how it is so easy for someone to push aside their feelings, let alone HIDE how they truly feel about you, because they’re just afraid of being put in the same old predicament. MOVE ON,LET IT GO. So they accept the next person that can fill their emptiness. Then I'm here on the other end thinking,WAS I NOT ENOUGH? Now I feel like all my hard work, time & effort was completely stripped out of my hands. & I have no control over it. Am I the one with the problem?
But in conclusion,it's not me. Its him.
I'm just generous with love. He’s the one who’s addicted to the idea of finding it,even though it's right in front of him.

& you know what?
That's not MY problem.

waiting to exhale

i'm generous with myself,willing to risk my heart. no rules,no fear. you say take a step and dive in,but all you do is wade in caution.

jenny makes my world go round

there's blood in my mouth cause i've been biting my tongue all week.
p.s. i miss my hair

love and some verses

love is a dress you made,long to hide your knees
Love to say this to your face,I'll love you only
Love and some verses you hear,say what you can say
Love to say this in your ear,I'll love you that way

to the girl across the street

Everyone always want to be the stronger person, the more stable person, the happiest person the world has yet to see. I can blow off a situation like it never happened, memories can be erased from me like nothing was ever embedded in my mind or heart, but that only happens when I feel wronged by you. Why should I be the one chasing you when it seems like … I’m no longer the friend I once was to you. I don't mind the silence or tense feeling, I don't mind the loneliness I feel sometimes, because I feel … better knowing that I was once something important to you. I’m better off picking up the pieces by myself.
You dont understand, you just dont know.

'twas fate

light will pour out of your eyes,& i'll make you see that we belong. And you'll stick with me,because nature needs no glue.

your words aren't a love song,more like a love bomb,and they crashed and burned all over my heart.