me myself&i

You were happy once; you were sunshine and smiles and a brightness that radiated. You may be cloudy now, you may not want to sing. You may just want to fold inside of yourself, on the oldest couch you can find, by the biggest window, and watch it rain.
You used to find that little things made you happy; now you can’t even find the big things. Somehow, along the way, you lost yourself.
One foot in front of the other, and you will find your way back.

nothing but a miracle

"love is a trap. when it appears we see only its light,not its shadows."



please,i wish i could vent properly.

throughout this whole time, the second he was giving up,I was deeply blaming myself. As if, every stunt he pulled was my fault.I'm here questioning God,wondering if something was wrong with ME! I don't understand, how it is so easy for someone to push aside their feelings, let alone HIDE how they truly feel about you, because they’re just afraid of being put in the same old predicament. MOVE ON,LET IT GO. So they accept the next person that can fill their emptiness. Then I'm here on the other end thinking,WAS I NOT ENOUGH? Now I feel like all my hard work, time & effort was completely stripped out of my hands. & I have no control over it. Am I the one with the problem?
But in conclusion,it's not me. Its him.
I'm just generous with love. He’s the one who’s addicted to the idea of finding it,even though it's right in front of him.

& you know what?
That's not MY problem.

waiting to exhale

i'm generous with myself,willing to risk my heart. no rules,no fear. you say take a step and dive in,but all you do is wade in caution.

jenny makes my world go round

there's blood in my mouth cause i've been biting my tongue all week.
p.s. i miss my hair

love and some verses

love is a dress you made,long to hide your knees
Love to say this to your face,I'll love you only
Love and some verses you hear,say what you can say
Love to say this in your ear,I'll love you that way

to the girl across the street

Everyone always want to be the stronger person, the more stable person, the happiest person the world has yet to see. I can blow off a situation like it never happened, memories can be erased from me like nothing was ever embedded in my mind or heart, but that only happens when I feel wronged by you. Why should I be the one chasing you when it seems like … I’m no longer the friend I once was to you. I don't mind the silence or tense feeling, I don't mind the loneliness I feel sometimes, because I feel … better knowing that I was once something important to you. I’m better off picking up the pieces by myself.
You dont understand, you just dont know.

'twas fate

light will pour out of your eyes,& i'll make you see that we belong. And you'll stick with me,because nature needs no glue.

your words aren't a love song,more like a love bomb,and they crashed and burned all over my heart.

what if Prince Charming had never shown up on his noble steed? What if he had never kissed Snow White & woken her up & they had never lived happily ever after? Would she have stayed asleep for all eternity? Or would she have gotten up, spit out the apple,gotten some health insurance & had a baby from a sperm donor? Does that mean that in every strong woman there lays a delicate flower? Is that all women want,to be rescued?

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

urbandictionary.com

it was a good laugh.

1.Estefania

1. The most beautiful female in the world. Most people think of her as an angel, but is actually a goddess in human form.

2. A word that can be used in any part of speech to mean beautiful, smart, sexy, awesome, etc.

Verb: He Estefanied the park enough to make everyone love it.
Noun: That was Estefania.
Adverb: With you or without you, I can Estefanialy make this work.
Adjective: When I look into your eyes, I can't look away because they are so Estefania.


2. estefania

the coolest chick ever

1.estefania kicks ass!



3. estefania

the bunny that lives under your bed and constantly haunts your dream of oranges and bananas.

1.Holy SHIT!? Is that estefania! It was in my dream too. WHAT A DOUCHE!

like i said

The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good. And twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad. And no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something. And there is only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomachache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.

love is a four letter word for "here's my heart and soul please grind them into a hamburger and enjoy."




i hope you like your meat rare.

i wanna stay

too many times, I have wondered what all the trying is for. I'm gonna drown cos I know that you've fallen short. but do you know? it doesn't change the way I feel about you, at the end of the day. cos I know, that I all I want is what you got. too many times, I have wanted to turn around and walk away knowing deep inside, you can't provide what I need from you, anyway. i wanna stay but I know I'm gonna lose myself this way.

you ask me if i think it's worth it,i've never been more sure.
but its never made sense for me to love you,or for you to love me,i've always known that.